So lets recap.

The past few weeks at work wasn't really my idea of something pleasant. Then the strike broke out and suddenly it was only me and the boss around to do 10 employees work. We we're supposed to close the office yesterday, but instead head office ordered us to open the doors. And continue a days' work, knowing we're only two.

My nokia decided to kick the bucket (actually I dropped it) and the samsung threw in the towel (actually I dropped it in the bath) and my laptop is also acting up. My 8gb USB flashy (sue me, flashy sounds cute) got stepped on and my digital pen is missing. The tablet on its own is pretty useless and I cant afford a new set just yet. My camera's lense is fuzzy. (sure, all of above can be fixed but most of it requires some sort of excess finances which I dont have. And really, when all of the above seem to happen in shorts periods of time, one really cant muster up the energy to even care anymore)

About two weeks ago I slipped and sprained BOTH my ankles. And its still painful. I'm really living up to my clumisness factor these days.

My creativity and inspiration disappeared, even though I have a logo to finalize and a movie poster to draft. I havent written anything decent in ages. Poetry or otherwise. And my digital art skills are also turning into a rusty mess.

Oh, and to top all of that, I've been feeling uncertain about something and someone that has been a very important factor in my life for the past couple years. This is not the place for soppy details, but I just don't feel the feelings are mutual anymore. Trust is important for me, to be able to place my trust in someone. I dont give second chances but this with the exception to the rule. Lately I've been wondering if I should've given that 2nd chance. and the third... and the fourth... And I'm just not sure if I'm gonna give a last chance anymore. Whats the use if I'm not even "recognized?" If you're ashamed to say to the world "this is C and I love her" then stop wasting my time.

Okay... So I'm gonna end this entry now before it turns into a mushy mess and try to walk away with some of my pride and humour intact. lol...

(PS. my phones will be in during the week for repairs, and unless I can get my hands on a spare one I'll be pretty much mxit and internet-less. [I'm gonna TRY and use the time to create enought stuff to keep my deviant art followers mesmerized. I need to art more!] So dont miss me too much. I'll refrain from jumping off any cliffs and when I return it'll be with a well adjusted sense self again that befits all grown-ups and maybe even with an arsenal of informative and relevant blog entries again ;)