Unshackled Thoughts and Musings

Lately I've been having this overwhelming urge to write. Poetry? Prose? I don't know... Content? Fiction? Non-fiction? I'm not really sure... I do sit in front of my laptop for hours on end just strumming my fingers lightly over the keyboard. I do that sometimes, when I don't know what to write, yet the muse is shackled ever so slightly on my left shoulder. Never the right shoulder. I'm sure if she tries hard enough she could break free, but noooo.. She just sits there, quite happily restrained. Laughing. Then when the tapping of keyboard starts to bore me, I'd play around with a few sentences. Deleting them and start again. And so goes the process till I just close the document without saving. I like to write; I like to ramble about what ever tickles my fancy. Or scratches it, for that matter... Truth be told. I don't write hardly enough. So, pardon my ramblings, give me some space to clear the cobwebs out.

seems my luck aint changed yet.

Posted by: ShackledMuse

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So lets recap.

The past few weeks at work wasn't really my idea of something pleasant. Then the strike broke out and suddenly it was only me and the boss around to do 10 employees work. We we're supposed to close the office yesterday, but instead head office ordered us to open the doors. And continue a days' work, knowing we're only two.

My nokia decided to kick the bucket (actually I dropped it) and the samsung threw in the towel (actually I dropped it in the bath) and my laptop is also acting up. My 8gb USB flashy (sue me, flashy sounds cute) got stepped on and my digital pen is missing. The tablet on its own is pretty useless and I cant afford a new set just yet. My camera's lense is fuzzy. (sure, all of above can be fixed but most of it requires some sort of excess finances which I dont have. And really, when all of the above seem to happen in shorts periods of time, one really cant muster up the energy to even care anymore)

About two weeks ago I slipped and sprained BOTH my ankles. And its still painful. I'm really living up to my clumisness factor these days.

My creativity and inspiration disappeared, even though I have a logo to finalize and a movie poster to draft. I havent written anything decent in ages. Poetry or otherwise. And my digital art skills are also turning into a rusty mess.

Oh, and to top all of that, I've been feeling uncertain about something and someone that has been a very important factor in my life for the past couple years. This is not the place for soppy details, but I just don't feel the feelings are mutual anymore. Trust is important for me, to be able to place my trust in someone. I dont give second chances but this with the exception to the rule. Lately I've been wondering if I should've given that 2nd chance. and the third... and the fourth... And I'm just not sure if I'm gonna give a last chance anymore. Whats the use if I'm not even "recognized?" If you're ashamed to say to the world "this is C and I love her" then stop wasting my time.

Okay... So I'm gonna end this entry now before it turns into a mushy mess and try to walk away with some of my pride and humour intact. lol...

(PS. my phones will be in during the week for repairs, and unless I can get my hands on a spare one I'll be pretty much mxit and internet-less. [I'm gonna TRY and use the time to create enought stuff to keep my deviant art followers mesmerized. I need to art more!] So dont miss me too much. I'll refrain from jumping off any cliffs and when I return it'll be with a well adjusted sense self again that befits all grown-ups and maybe even with an arsenal of informative and relevant blog entries again ;)

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written by hotpotatoe, August 23, 2009
good luck keep the chin up luv......
written by isabella, August 23, 2009
like hot potatoe says, chin up. sounds like a really bad week.

Some advice: be more careful with your electronics, realize that work is work and work usually sucks, do art and you'll feel better and ditch the guy. he sounds like a loser.
written by redsaid, August 23, 2009
that was me by the way, isa. not redsaid :?
written by Shackled Muse, August 23, 2009
lol ne. some good advice there. im very clumsy tho

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