So, I've been a little quiet lately... I'm in a bit of a dark place, creatively speaking. Not only did I miserably fail the NaNoWriMo challenge (managing a mere 2776 words), but my art account is a dusty neglected environment, my two websites are stuck somewhere in the web of world-widedness, I still cant get the hang of Wordpress, my blogging accounts are out of date and I cant remember the last time a sketched/painted something and felt good about it.
This artist's block now also affect other parts of my life; I cant seem to find a new job even though I desperately need to make a move to the Big Bad City soon, which in turn robs me of my self confidence, causing me to doubt my worth to the world (mine or yours)
To bring it all together in one short sentence: my life just doesn't feel right. Somethings wrong and I don't know how to fix it (that almost sounds like a John Mayer song.)
I uploaded the first chapter of the nanowrimo thingy to deviantart ( http://ireful.deviantart.com/art/Post-Apocalyptic-Untitled-145497493 ) and although the few encouraging comments I received made me feel all warm and fluffy, Im back in the depression stages now because I cant write the next friggen chapter.
I even went so far as writing a list of prompts to inspire me to write, but yes, you guessed it, can't even seem to pull that off.
So yeah. I'm basically stuck in a deep dark place somewhere and I don't know how to get out.
Any suggestions?

written by redsaid, December 18, 2009

