myDigitalLife Blogs

A short description about your blog



Tagged in: Untagged 


Epiphany:  I have not had a successful relationship with a man because generally I just don’t believe what they say.  Whenever I get a compliment from a man I believe it is most likely to be part of a sinister plot devised to use me for their own purpose – whatever that may be… you always only figure that out at a later stage – after the breakup. 


I have received a compliment from my newly acquired hunk of delicious about my boobies and how pretty they are to him.  I find it hard to believe because when I look at my reflection in the mirror all I see are droopy flaps with stretch marks.  My nipples each point to opposing wind directions and I fail the pencil test miserably!  Not a pretty picture. Well, it does not look like the perky ones that I admire on models.  So, I immediately assume that he must be lying to me.  Just to have a “bonk” until he meets someone else who has real pretty boobs.  Then he will leave me for her.  At this point I have to stop myself and consider the following, he has seen my boobs grow and change since 1996.  I know him well enough to know that his compliment is heart felt.  Knowing his character, of course, resulted in my moment of clarity.


Now being the type of person I am, I need to establish from where this general feeling of mistrust comes from.  If I do that then perhaps I could find a solution to the problem.  Just being aware of this flaw of mine at least re-programs the mind in some fashion, doesn’t it?  At least next time a positive comment comes my way I won’t just shoot point blank, but I could mull over the fact that it’s possibly my own low self esteem that leads me to believe that they are lies.  It will be hard, but I could trust my new male companion to help me grow through this. 



Yeah, that’s right! I used the word trust and male companion in the same sentence.  Could that be a step in the right direction?  I hope so.  I find the whole concept of a life long relationship very appealing.  The very fact that it thus far eludes me is very disappointing.  At least I can go forward in the knowledge that I have grown and that I am learning from my mistakes.

Comments (0)Add Comment

Add your 2Cents
You must be logged in to post a comment. Please register if you do not have an account yet.


Member Login